i feel like im in between so many things but i have nothing to just let everything out with. yea i have my parents and rinn, i have kao, i have all my dance friends, i have people who i can go to and talk to about anything to, but this time i feel like im in this all alone. i feel like no one really understands how i feel. yea they understand how it feels like to lose someone really special, but i get these feeling i cant even describe. i cant even describe how i feel so how am i even supposed to have someone understand me. its not that i want someone to comfort me, but i just feel like this time i have no one to just talk to and cry to. i sit in my room crying but nothings changing. eventually things will get better, but whens eventually? every little thing reminds me of him and i feel like im making such a big deal but i just dont know what i should be doing. i cant just move on without doing anything. i feel like i owe him something, but i just dont know what.